Acting my age

Blown away. Seriously, I did not see it coming. Did i deserve it? I spent 20 minutes in the shower thinking about it. I realised I was and still am that kind of person, who thinks mistakes are okay. Who thinks mistakes made by others are okay. Is it time to act my age? To be 21? to be an adult? That got me into serious thinking, the way I am all these years, is it time for me to be mature? I have gone through 2 years of NS, getting so much experience, even staying and surviving on a bunk bed on a battleship. I thought I have obtained or mastered the lesson of maturity from NS. 

I guess not. When i ORD, I felt like a bird, making her maiden voyage, flapping her wings, taking flight. Freedom. 

All good things will end. Freedom is short lived. Time to act my age. Now, priority is studies. Fun comes last. 

Another thing i realised about myself while I was in shower, FUN is the word for me. When I do things, I will always look for ways to make it fun. Or actually Lame, no matter who's looking at me, or bitching about me, I will have fun. 

And as I said, Fun comes last. Personal Image comes first. 

Anyway, I received messages from you. I felt the coldness. I replied the same way I did last time. I still felt the coldness in your replies. Do you hate me now? I guess no matter what i say now, it does not matter. I am the asshole here. I feel like cutting myself up for doing this to you. But I hope you know, that what I did, was for your sake. If that sounded cliche, so be it. I wish that you can find someone like me, but who can better support you than me. 

I felt pain too.

* Note to self : Keeping to my word of typing better English. 

From me to you*

If ever I disappear,

or ice overwhelms me.

I promise,

I will be your cloud,

however bright the sun is,

or dark the night.

I will be around,

sheltering or shielding.

I will be there,

for you.

exams

Exams are two weeks away. Wake up Robin. You have not done any revision. Your life now is only, Sleep, Wake up, Fun, Eat, Bathe, Sleep. Seriously, will you be contented with only a C average for your grades?

When will be the auspicious time for you to start studying? 1 hr before exams?

Oh well..

I just woke up.. like 3pm.. half a day gone. Seemingly, my English proficiency has dropped greatly since I left college. I have been typing in broken languages and I am amazed that people actually understands what i am typing. Bravo to all you people. But, personally, I thought that typing in this Perfect English format seems so rigid to me. The words just does not bring out the person I am. The Robin in real life cannot even pronounce words properly, no joking.

But, since one day, I am joining the corporate world soon, it's best I start typing the correct way. Starting from this post onwards.

Come what may...

fantastically fucking stupid

well said robin..

stop being an ass and spoiling other people's fun

wake up from that fucking retarded idea of yours..

you are just a retard, roaming on the streets hoping for something more..

dream on..

so wake up..

and smile..

myself

i realised something..seriously..the person i am.. hell alot of defects..

i over-think things too much

i am too sensitive

i expect too much from people

i take things for granted

i myself is the problem

i wished i was just a mannequin..

lifeless

emotions

i felt really useless..

but nothing will be written here..

it will be written somewhere else..

smile..

=)

study

hmmm..been thinking again.. its really crazy.. been doing assignments and shit till like 7am in the morning! wtf right~ i mean. we were given 2 weeks to do it.. and we wait till last min to do.. crazy shit.. procrastination really kills..

so from today onwards.. SUNDAY.. gonna sleep early.. wake up at least by 9.. and study for 2 hrs before going for lectures.. i mean seriously.. i am gonna flunk if this continues..

so yea.. lets go..

LETS GO~

feelings

hello all..dunno who is reading this.. lol.. but nevermind.. place for me to put my thoughts. =) sorry..been long since i blog.. but i have been trying to blog on the go on my iphone, but it does not work.. the keyboard does not pop up while i inside blogger.. damn sucky.. well anyway.. finished busn assignment on friday.. holy shit.. chiong from 6pm till morning 6am.. crazy shit.. well anyway.. been relaxing.. now gonna do stats quiz.. =) gonna start studying soon~

yeap..

anyway, something i got off from the net..

One of the prettiest things in life,

is to watch the one you love fall asleep.

and the next prettiest thing is when,

she wakes up and smiles at you.

=)

yea..i wish that happened to me...